Is Jodi Arias remorseful because she got caught or for the gruesome act of MURDER?

It’s hard to get away from the Jodi Arias trial. It’s on every news station and on every social media. Though I have not purposely followed the trial, I did listen to the statements from Travis Alexander’s brother and sister. As tears filled my eyes I could relate to that kind of pain. The sorrow knowing that your sibling died a horrific death, probably pleading for the murderer to stop as the last breaths are snuffed out.

I also watched the statement of Jodi Arias as she pleaded for life in prison instead of the death penalty. I couldn’t imagine what one would say to defend themselves after being convicted of first degree murder. After all, she did commit to the gruesome act.

I don’t believe Arias is remorseful for the murder but is remorseful she got caught. Her motto seems to be, what lie can I tell now that will benefit ME? During her statement she tries to prove that she is a human being that can still donate to society in a positive way. She talks about selling t-shirts in prison and donating the proceeds to nonprofits working with domestic abuse. She’s donated her hair three times to Locks of Love while incarcerated and will continue to do so. She wants to teach other criminals how to speak Spanish, American Sign Language, to read and to draw. Arias talked about starting a recycling program in prison. She describes her childhood and family while using a PowerPoint presentation. Really?? The whole thing was bizarre. I thought, I hope Travis’s family is not there listening to her. And if they are, I hope someone has a container for them to throw up in.

Here’s the definition of narcissism according to the Merriam-Webster dictionary. “Mental disorder characterized by extreme self-absorption, an exaggerated sense of self-importance, and a need for attention and admiration from others. First identified byHavelock Ellis in 1898, the disorder is named for the mythological Narcissus, who fell in love with his own reflection. In addition to an inflated self-image and addiction to fantasy, narcissism is characterized by an unusual coolness and composure, which is shaken only when the narcissistic confidence is threatened, and by the tendency to take others for granted or to exploit them.”

Sound familiar? It sickens me that she did not start out with an apology to Travis’s family or to her family for what she’s put them through. Not that it would change anything for the Alexander family. Travis is never coming back.

The jury is having a difficult time deliberating on whether Arias should receive the death penalty or life in prison. I’m not sure why we have the death penalty if it’s not for crimes such as this. Maybe the jury needs to study the horrific crime scene photos again and again until they can truly visualize the heinous crime Arias committed.